quiet rain brought a darker than usual tuesday morning on this day 2 of the sol mates challenge. nevertheless, i rose with the hidden sun and slipped peacefully into the stillness around me.
yesterday i found myself eagerly awaiting the 9:15 sunset. maybe it was simply exhaustion from our busy weekend. but possibly it was something more nuanced. you see, it was like i once again had a bedtime dictated to me by someone else. like when i was a kid and my parents spoke the dreaded words..."time for bed!". by the time our kids were asleep, my 9:15 bedtime left me with little margin for myself. but even still, there was a freedom that came from an obligation to sleep. it somehow relieved me of the pressure to cram all that i need or want to accomplish interruption-free into the small window before i retire for the night. rather than falling into bed feeling under-accomplished and tightly-wound, i somehow just felt finished. simply finished.
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